Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Everything, and nothing

I will forewarn you, this post will probably have no sense of organization or purpose as I'm not sure what to write! So I am sorry in advance!
Life as usual has been crazy, and for the most part I absolutely love it! Being in Nashville has done so much for my emotional stability, which affects everything that revolves around me! Brads job is going well, kids are doing great, Tyler has had a birthday, he is now two! I can not believe that my baby is two! Abby is registered for kindergarten and very excited about it! We joined our church which was a great thing for us! We have become pretty active and feel good about where we are with our community. My premier business is going okay, I am loving it and very excited about what is going to come my way with it. I am still having trouble getting started and knew this would be the case, as I don't know many people in this area. I know that it will be a slow process, but thats okay I'm willing to keep going strong and work hard to get to where I want to be!

Tyman had a procedure done on his stomach last week and we have received the results, everything is normal. This is great news, but now we are pretty much out of things to try to figure out why he is constipated! So a blessing and disappointment at the same time.

Have you all seen the news lately? (Here is where there is no organization to this!) I'm not sure how I feel about the world right now. On one hand I am extremely proud to be an American, but on the other side, I feel like oh crap what is going to come out of this. What I am talking about it is the killing of public enemy #1, Osama Bin Laden. Although I understand everything that is being said, I keep thinking about what is going to happen now. I think the US did several things correctly, I think he was given a proper burial with the respect to his culture and religion, taken care of. I think from what it sounds like that nothing was really rushed. The government and President took everything into consideration and asked a lot of questions. Although this is a good thing for us, I'm worried about security going up for several days, weeks, and nothing happening, and then after everyone gets back to normal something horrid happening. Lets just say my anxiety level right now is very high! I know that there will be things happening all over the world, possibly in my own back yard! I know that I can not control anything, and that I should always no matter what, live life as today could be my last! I'm just scared. I keep thinking of my kids and what they are going to have to go through! What is their life going to be like?

I guess this is my fault as well, but our society is so hooked on what I call instant gratification. We can get anywhere in a matter of time. We run out of milk, no biggie, jump in the car and drive to the store, or call the hubs and have him pick it up on the way home from work. We rely on our cell phones/computers/electricity/ for everything. I honestly don't know that I could have a garden and make it thrive enough to feed my family. I know I could start a fire, change the way we living moderately, but I don't know that I could make it without the convenience of electricity for long periods of time. I think that we as people are truly good people and would help each other get things done both physically and psychologically. But the thought of not knowing is very scary to me! The thought of retaliation scares me!

I think I am done, I feel like I have just run around in circles the last few minutes! I'm sorry. Thanks for listening!